Well, Doctor's appointment didn't exactly turn out how I expected. I have to wait until the 16th to go into the hospital. I'm going in Thursday night at 8pm and then they're going to start me on pitocin Friday morning. They're having me go in Thursday night because they're going to put some type of gel on my cervix to try and soften it up before they start the pitocin. Hopefully it works, since I am still...1cm dilated. Of course.
When I heard my doctor say the 16th, my heart dropped. And no, not in a good way. I was devastated. The second I left the doctor's office I started crying, no..more like sobbing. It was pathetic and definitely not one of my most proud moments. I had gotten my hopes so high on having this baby this week that when I heard differently, it crushed me. This was not what I wanted. I know that's rather selfish of me but...I didn't care.
Another reason why I started to freak out, the BIG reason why, is because Vaughn is going to be gone Sunday-Wednesday night/early Thursday morning. Pretty much he'll just be making it in time for me to go into the hospital. But, the thing that upset me the most, is that my doctor is planning on stripping my membranes on Tuesday. I thought to myself, "Seriously?! Are you trying to give me a mental breakdown?!"
Because I've seen many women go into labor shortly after their membranes are stripped...And if that happens to me, I am going to be hysterical. I need Vaughn there. As silly as it sounds, I wouldn't be able to do it without him. He keeps me going, makes me strong. He's my backbone...and he doesn't even seem to know it. He thinks that I'm his...pfft, that's what I say. He has no clue how much I depend on him with this pregnancy. Also, he doesn't want to miss the birth. He's as excited as I am and can't wait to see his baby girl come into the world.
I'm going to try and have my doctor NOT strip my membranes on Tuesday. Because if she does, and I go into labor, it'll take Vaughn about 4 1/2 hours to get to the hospital. And if there's any sort of traffic at all, he'd be there in 5-6 hours. I can't even imagine that happening.. It literally makes me sick to my stomach.
But of course when I told Vaughn my worries, he instantly put me into check. As he always does. He told me not to worry about the "what ifs" (Which I have a horrible problem with, by the way) and that I need to take everything one day at a time. He also reminded me that stressing isn't good for myself or our little girl either (He seriously just melts my heart, every time). So that calmed me down quite a bit and I tried to push it into the back of my mind.
So, 8 days left until little Olive comes into the world. I'm an emotional mess, of course. I didn't think I'd be this bad, but...heck, this whole pregnancy has surprised me. I'm extremely excited and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that she sticks it out until the 16th so that her daddy can be there. I talked to her (Yes...I talked to her, don't laugh at me) and told her that she should wait it out until daddy-o gets home, because I know just how much she loves him and wants to meet him first thing. So I'm hoping that little pep talk got to her! Haha. I swear, I'm losing my mind.
Anywho, I'll do my best to update when I can. It'll probably just be me ranting with a mixture of emotions, but hey, at least it's something!
xo, Jess.
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Monday, August 6, 2012
Tomorrow
Tomorrow is the day that I schedule my induction date. Nervous doesn't even begin to explain how I'm now feeling. Now don't get me wrong, I am extremely and undoubtedly very excited, but I can't help but feeling like it's all coming so fast... Which is completely crazy of me, since I have had a full 9 months to marinate on things.
I guess it's just finally starting to sink in. Olive will be out most likely before the end of this week. My life is going to change, drastically, but hasn't it already? I don't know why I'm so nervous for the change, I've been preparing for this all along. I thought I was 100% emotionally ready for this to happen, but I guess no soon-to-be new mom ever really is. It's a hard transition to get used to, but I know it'll be more than worth it.
I love Olive, with every ounce of my being. These past 9 months have been the hardest, yet most incredible, 9 months of my entire life. I've changed so much in such a short time, Vaughn as well. I think I'm the most proud of him though, to be honest. He's grown so much these past months and it's incredible seeing just how far he's come. He's going to be an incredible dad and I'm so thankful to have him by my side. He's been there for me, through hell and back, and our love grows stronger every day. I can't believe that him and I have our own little family. Him and I talk about it a lot, but it's incredible to think that within DAYS that time will actually be here. Finally. This pregnancy has definitely strengthened our relationship, our bond as a couple. As that song goes, "And I thought I loved you then".
Okay, enough of my rambling. I just needed to spill a bunch of thoughts in hopes to try and get some sleep tonight. My mind has been racing nonstop since I realized that tomorrow is the day. Well, sort of. Who knows, I might be scheduled for induction the day after tomorrow! That'd be fantastic. I'm hoping and praying that things go smoothly.
Well, this may be the last post I have before little Olive is here! I'll do my best to update when I can!
xo, Jess
I guess it's just finally starting to sink in. Olive will be out most likely before the end of this week. My life is going to change, drastically, but hasn't it already? I don't know why I'm so nervous for the change, I've been preparing for this all along. I thought I was 100% emotionally ready for this to happen, but I guess no soon-to-be new mom ever really is. It's a hard transition to get used to, but I know it'll be more than worth it.
I love Olive, with every ounce of my being. These past 9 months have been the hardest, yet most incredible, 9 months of my entire life. I've changed so much in such a short time, Vaughn as well. I think I'm the most proud of him though, to be honest. He's grown so much these past months and it's incredible seeing just how far he's come. He's going to be an incredible dad and I'm so thankful to have him by my side. He's been there for me, through hell and back, and our love grows stronger every day. I can't believe that him and I have our own little family. Him and I talk about it a lot, but it's incredible to think that within DAYS that time will actually be here. Finally. This pregnancy has definitely strengthened our relationship, our bond as a couple. As that song goes, "And I thought I loved you then".
Okay, enough of my rambling. I just needed to spill a bunch of thoughts in hopes to try and get some sleep tonight. My mind has been racing nonstop since I realized that tomorrow is the day. Well, sort of. Who knows, I might be scheduled for induction the day after tomorrow! That'd be fantastic. I'm hoping and praying that things go smoothly.
Well, this may be the last post I have before little Olive is here! I'll do my best to update when I can!
xo, Jess
Sunday, August 5, 2012
It's been too long!
Sorry that it's been ages since I last updated, I've just had a lot going on lately. My mom is here, has been for the past few weeks, and probably won't leave until Olive is a week or two old. When I went to the hospital 2 weeks ago, we figured she would be an early baby....Guess who was wrong! My due date is the 10th, and still, nothin'.
Last week at my dr appointment my doctor told me that I have til our next appt (which is coming up this Tuesday) to have her and then we're going to schedule a day for me to be induced. I was rather nervous at first, since I've heard that inductions are NOT fun, whatsoever. But the more I think about it, the more it makes sense. I've been 1cm dilated and 50% effaced for about 3 weeks now. I highly doubt that Olive is going to be coming out on time and without a big ol' push and a shove. She definitely takes after her father, constantly pulling my leg.
I'm excited, nervous, and pretty much an all-around mess. It's weird that the end is finally in sight. I felt like it would never happen, since time seemed to be going by unnaturally slow the past few weeks. But, alas, the end! I can't wait to hold Olive in my arms, and be able to look into her bright eyes. I'm nervous for labor, but I'm more excited for the outcome. I just want my baby, and soon enough, I'll have her.
I can't get over just how good it feels to be able to say that. She'll be here soon... I'm already in love.
Last week at my dr appointment my doctor told me that I have til our next appt (which is coming up this Tuesday) to have her and then we're going to schedule a day for me to be induced. I was rather nervous at first, since I've heard that inductions are NOT fun, whatsoever. But the more I think about it, the more it makes sense. I've been 1cm dilated and 50% effaced for about 3 weeks now. I highly doubt that Olive is going to be coming out on time and without a big ol' push and a shove. She definitely takes after her father, constantly pulling my leg.
I'm excited, nervous, and pretty much an all-around mess. It's weird that the end is finally in sight. I felt like it would never happen, since time seemed to be going by unnaturally slow the past few weeks. But, alas, the end! I can't wait to hold Olive in my arms, and be able to look into her bright eyes. I'm nervous for labor, but I'm more excited for the outcome. I just want my baby, and soon enough, I'll have her.
I can't get over just how good it feels to be able to say that. She'll be here soon... I'm already in love.
Friday, July 13, 2012
36 weeks
I have thankfully made it to 36 weeks, and I couldn't be any happier! Well...as happy as an 8 months pregnant woman can be anyway. My doctor was surprised that I haven't gone into labor yet, and so am I.
This month has been very stressful for me, but I'm doing my best to remain relaxed and take everything one day at a time. That's all anyone can do, right?
Oh, some more news (sorry if it's tmi!). At my doctor's appt last Tuesday she checked my cervix and...was able to feel Olive's little ol' head! Apparently those contractions that I got back in Pendleton did enough damage to open up my cervix a little bit. Not a full centimeter yet, but getting close! Unfortunately it doesn't give us any more information on when Olive will be arriving.
Also, tmi again, my mucus plug came out yesterday. Yes, I noticed it, unfortunately. It wasn't as gross as I had been expecting, but still, ew! Again, just another thing leading up to labor. But it's still a total "Yahoo!" in my book, because that means my body is progressing! Slowly, but surely.
I think she's going to be an early one. I don't want to assume or make a prediction, but it's hard not to! Especially when all these signs are showing up. For example, had more contractions today, but they went away as quickly as they had came. Which is fine by me, Olive can stay in a few more weeks. Can't say there won't be any complaints though! Especially with this wretched heat lately haha.
Anywho, here's my list for week 36!
- Craving fruits and vegetables, that's it (No complaints here!)
- She's still moving a bunch, just less kicks and more rolls
- Got a wonderful baby package in from my friend Amanda, I was extremely surprised and thankful!
- Having a hard time moving or doing pretty much anything
- She has officially dropped!
- Bathroom trips galore now, urgh.
- Still as swollen as ever, especially my feet. Poor things.
- Can barely eat a decent sized meal anymore, so, tiny meals it is.
- I have gained 35-40lbs now, even though I barely eat anything but fruits and vegetables. Darn!
- Oh and finally can breathe again! Yippee!
That's all I have so far. I'm excited for my appointment next Tuesday with my obgyn, hopefully she'll have more good news about my progress! :-)
This month has been very stressful for me, but I'm doing my best to remain relaxed and take everything one day at a time. That's all anyone can do, right?
Oh, some more news (sorry if it's tmi!). At my doctor's appt last Tuesday she checked my cervix and...was able to feel Olive's little ol' head! Apparently those contractions that I got back in Pendleton did enough damage to open up my cervix a little bit. Not a full centimeter yet, but getting close! Unfortunately it doesn't give us any more information on when Olive will be arriving.
Also, tmi again, my mucus plug came out yesterday. Yes, I noticed it, unfortunately. It wasn't as gross as I had been expecting, but still, ew! Again, just another thing leading up to labor. But it's still a total "Yahoo!" in my book, because that means my body is progressing! Slowly, but surely.
I think she's going to be an early one. I don't want to assume or make a prediction, but it's hard not to! Especially when all these signs are showing up. For example, had more contractions today, but they went away as quickly as they had came. Which is fine by me, Olive can stay in a few more weeks. Can't say there won't be any complaints though! Especially with this wretched heat lately haha.
Anywho, here's my list for week 36!
- Craving fruits and vegetables, that's it (No complaints here!)
- She's still moving a bunch, just less kicks and more rolls
- Got a wonderful baby package in from my friend Amanda, I was extremely surprised and thankful!
- Having a hard time moving or doing pretty much anything
- She has officially dropped!
- Bathroom trips galore now, urgh.
- Still as swollen as ever, especially my feet. Poor things.
- Can barely eat a decent sized meal anymore, so, tiny meals it is.
- I have gained 35-40lbs now, even though I barely eat anything but fruits and vegetables. Darn!
- Oh and finally can breathe again! Yippee!
That's all I have so far. I'm excited for my appointment next Tuesday with my obgyn, hopefully she'll have more good news about my progress! :-)
Monday, July 9, 2012
Updates
I know that I don't have any followers or anything, but I feel bad that I haven't posted in a while! While I was away in Pendleton with Vaughn for 3 days, I ended up almost going into labor. It was the scariest thing! Especially since I was 4+ hours away from my hospital. I was having the worst contractions, all day, but I refused to say anything since I didn't want to go to the hospital out there. For the record, Pendleton, OR has the worst rated hospital in the United States, not even kidding.
So, of course, the last thing I wanted to do was go into that hospital.
I just slept it off and in the morning the contractions were gone. I called my doctor early Monday morning and she said that I have to rest as much as possible, drink lots of water, and eat small meals every few hours or so. Being 35 1/2 weeks now, they won't do anything to stop my labor, so I just have to pray to God that she stays in there until 38 weeks.
Things are better now, for the most part. Still having a hard time breathing, and feeling faint pretty much all day. The heat definitely does not help things either. But, I'm enjoying these last few weeks with my baby bump, because I know I'll end up missing it.
Only 4 more weeks to go!
So, of course, the last thing I wanted to do was go into that hospital.
I just slept it off and in the morning the contractions were gone. I called my doctor early Monday morning and she said that I have to rest as much as possible, drink lots of water, and eat small meals every few hours or so. Being 35 1/2 weeks now, they won't do anything to stop my labor, so I just have to pray to God that she stays in there until 38 weeks.
Things are better now, for the most part. Still having a hard time breathing, and feeling faint pretty much all day. The heat definitely does not help things either. But, I'm enjoying these last few weeks with my baby bump, because I know I'll end up missing it.
Only 4 more weeks to go!
Monday, July 2, 2012
34 weeks
Oh and I almost forgot! I am now 34w2d, so I suppose I should do a pregnancy update. So here it goes:
- I'm lightheaded, dizzy and about to pass out pretty much 24/7
- I officially don't fit into anything, literally
- Heartburn, heartburn, heartburn!
- Coffee cravings like no other
- All I want to do is sleep..all day, every day.
- Have been getting a lot of labor dreams lately
- I'm nervous, and excited. And nervous some more.
- Olive absolutely LOVES Vaughn's funky music- she dances around like crazy!
- Getting more BH contractions- getting closer!
Things to do for baby Olive:
- Wash baby clothes
- Move to downstairs room, eventually
- Find pediatrician**** I need to do this ASAP.
- Pass in paper for the hospital at my next appt on 7/10.
About a month left until my precious little baby girl is in my arms. I am more than excited.
3 day trip
Tomorrow morning Vaughn and I will be off to head to Pendleton for 3 days. One of those days includes my baby shower! I'm rather excited, since we have nothing for Olive except clothes. I'm also very excited about the food, but that's a given. Food has definitely been my best friend lately- mostly healthy things, promise!
Anywho, I'm rather nervous as to how this whole trip is going to play out. For one, Vaughn's sisters are CRAZY with planning everything down to a T. Like...to the point where they plan when we wake up, have breakfast, get in the car, swim at the lake, etc. It's a bit ridiculous, but hey, whatever floats their boat!
I've just been going insane with the millions of Facebook messages I've been getting about this trip. The itinerary is constantly changing, and there's always an enormous debate about, well, everything.
Vaughn and I both are not one for planning things. Well, yes, we like to have some sense of organization, but not every little thing we do planned out. I feel like I'm going to have to put when I need to pee (Which I do quite often now, by the way) into our itinerary as well!
I'm just intrigued to see all of this play out. Especially since none of the men in Vaughn's family are too excited about planning everything. But, I'm sure it'll all work out. Hopefully.
And as long as there's food in my belly and a place for me to sit down in the shade, there will be no complaints from me! Not that there would be anyway, I usually am rather quiet around Vaughn's family. Not that I don't enjoy being around them, I just can never seem to keep up with them!
Well, I will take plenty of pictures and write about the trip once I get back. Hope you all have a lovely 4th of July!
Anywho, I'm rather nervous as to how this whole trip is going to play out. For one, Vaughn's sisters are CRAZY with planning everything down to a T. Like...to the point where they plan when we wake up, have breakfast, get in the car, swim at the lake, etc. It's a bit ridiculous, but hey, whatever floats their boat!
I've just been going insane with the millions of Facebook messages I've been getting about this trip. The itinerary is constantly changing, and there's always an enormous debate about, well, everything.
Vaughn and I both are not one for planning things. Well, yes, we like to have some sense of organization, but not every little thing we do planned out. I feel like I'm going to have to put when I need to pee (Which I do quite often now, by the way) into our itinerary as well!
I'm just intrigued to see all of this play out. Especially since none of the men in Vaughn's family are too excited about planning everything. But, I'm sure it'll all work out. Hopefully.
And as long as there's food in my belly and a place for me to sit down in the shade, there will be no complaints from me! Not that there would be anyway, I usually am rather quiet around Vaughn's family. Not that I don't enjoy being around them, I just can never seem to keep up with them!
Well, I will take plenty of pictures and write about the trip once I get back. Hope you all have a lovely 4th of July!
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